Somethings we hang on to.
I’m the first to say, “it will all be ok” or “get over it.” Moving forward is something I find important to my mental well-being. So, I think others should do that too. BUT I KNOW SOMETHINGS are hard to get rid of. It’s hard to let go. It’s hard to move passed. It’s just hard. How do we do it? It’s not easy. It’s not instant!
That is what I’m struggling with. I want it to be DONE! I want to never think of it again. I want it to disappear. AND NOW. Not later, not in time, not gradually… I want the emotions of rejection and pain and sadness to be gone, right at this moment! I recognize the fact that life just doesn’t work that way. It’s like a wound healing, we must allow the process to happen. Sometimes that cut, scrape or gash takes a while. The wait for me is the worse. I want the thing closed, the scar gone and the new skin to smile back at me. NOW!
I know…in time. I know…it will happen. I know and I will hold on to the fact—that it will be ok. I must remember that every day is a good day, just some are better than others. I am blessed even when I hurt. I am happy even when I struggle. I can smile even when I feel like I’m being suffocated by things I had no control over. I am God’s child ALL THE TIME. I will move forward, because I know I am loved no matter what.
SOMETHINGS are just harder…