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Why I Cry

I think the biggest thing that makes me cry is letting others down.

When I cut my finger, feel bad about others who are in pain that I had nothing to do with or watch an emotional movie or commercial—SURE I cry then, but what will make me cry quicker than anything is when—

I let someone down.

I don’t do it ON PURPOSE, of course.  But still…I didn’t do something I was supposed to.  I, what some call, DROPPED THE BALL.  I guess that is why I don’t like that saying.  For me, it’s a super painful personal statement.

I know that I’m human and I shouldn’t fret so much on human error, but I do.  I should not forget things, do things the right way and follow through on things I’ve promised.  I try my best, but sometimes things happen.  I guess, grrrrrr…I drop the ball.  UG!  Again, hate that.

Today, Monday, just another day.  I know every day is a gift.  Every day is another opportunity.  Every day is a new day.  I am trying to keep my chin up and my attitude JOVIAL, but at this very moment, it’s difficult.

I know it will pass and hopefully I can make it up –the error, I mean–hopefully I can make it up to the person I let down.

But for now…I’ll just cry.


I thank God for great people He has put in my life.

I’m so blessed to know the people I do.
God has given me people in my life that confirm to me that HE is real. He uses people. I love to witness it. I love when He uses me too!
I have had conversations or experienced things with co-workers, friends, etc. that have helped me grow as a professional, as a friend and as a person. I thank God for these people so much!

The person I want to thank God for today (and whom I’ve thanked Him for several times in the last ten years) is my soon-to-be ex-boss, Scot Wright. I’m NOT brown-nosing here or trying to get any kind of points, you see, because he won’t be the one “taking score” on our campus this year. (if there truly is some kind of point system anyway)

In the last ten years I’ve seen him grow as an administrator and a leader. I liked him pretty instantly as a boss and it didn’t take much longer to figure out he is a great guy. He is a positive person, a dedicated person and what’s really cool: A LIFE LONG LEARNER. ((You know I love to learn!)) I know that the life long learner thing is turning into quite the buzz word here lately, but he was one of these way before it was “cool.” His character and personality is one of those that makes anyone like him quickly. He smiles, he laughs and definitely jokes around, but he can also be very serious and passionate about learning, leading and things that are important and vital to the well-being and education of our students.

Personally, he has been one of my greatest cheerleaders. He suggested I start this blog one summer and here I am a couple of years later with 737 posts and 346 followers, plus I created another blog for my class. He has encouraged me and helped me and supported me when he knew I needed it the most. He’s made me feel super smart when others have judged me as a dumb art teacher. He’s seen me cry and didn’t make fun of me. (yay!) Not being able to go in his office this upcoming school year and just sit there and talk about whatever is what I’m most sad about. I won’t be able to ask him questions about what form to fill out–a check request or purchase order (I never remember) OR ask advice about some crazy project my student council wants to try out. I won’t be able to lose my keys and have him laugh at me OR gripe at him about the bathroom and how the toilet won’t flush EVERYTHING and some people are totally against double flushing! Ew. HA! There have been quite a few times he’s made me laugh so hard about something that I keep thinking about and laughing for days. I will surely miss all that.

BUT I do have to say…I’m so happy for Mr. Wright, his lovely wife and their two kiddos. I’m sure it’s exciting to think of the opportunities he will have at his new job. His new place of employment will be fresh territory for him to share all the great attributes he possesses (that I’ve already mentioned…and more). His children, no doubt will do great at their new school. This move will be a wonderful adventure for all of them.

I’m so thankful that God allowed me to have him as my boss for ten WHOLE years. This man loves his family. He loves people. Most of all, and best of all, He loves God. It’s so awesome to work for someone who loves God.

He kids around a little too much sometimes (he made me seriously cry when he took a joke to far one time, but that is for some other blog) and at times, it’s hard to know when he’s being serious, but when he told me he took a job at a different school, I knew he was not joking. When he called me today to thank me for being great (another reason he’s great…he recognizes awesomeness…hehe), we agreed that staying in touch was important. Our girls are the same age and they will want to remain close, I’m sure. His wife is one of those people I can laugh out loud with at such crazy things (CHEWY!) no matter how long it’s been since we’ve seen each other. We gotta have another “girl day” soon!

So, even though I’m saying good-bye to Mr. Wright, I’m saying HELLO SCOT! (may I call you Scot now?!?) haha! I know I probably could have the entire time, but I call everyone at work by their last name. I’m not even sure I can call him Scot!

I know God put this family in my family’s life for purpose and again, I thank Him for it. This is NOT “good-bye” for real, this is just “I won’t see your face everyday, but we will still be friends forever no matter what!” Haha! Sounds like we need to have some kind of blood pact now. We can skip that part.

I thank God for great people He has put in my life.
May God bless Mr. Wright and his family in all! ((GO REBELS! …had to do that))

Want to follow a great, super cool life long learner?
Check Scot out on twitter @scot_wright.
His profile pic has a canvas in the background I made for him: LEARN …cuz IT IS WHAT IT IS (had to put that in there…it’s a total inside joke, sorry)

I choose to be happy.

There are times in life where sadness overwhelms you.

Things happen… life is a bit chaotic or even uncertain.

Uncertainty seems to make us all uneasy and a bit crazy.  Ok, a lot crazy.

THINK ABOUT IT THOUGH: Life changes all the time.  Why aren’t we ready for it?  We don’t properly prepare ourselves for it.  Do we even know how?  Who knows?  I can’t answer those questions.  They might as well be statements.

I do know, that instead of crying for days or griping about the situation, I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY.  Is it easy?  Not really.  At times, it’s so hard it makes the heart hurt, but still, I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY.   I might get sad and even cry some, but I still gotta choose to be happy.  It might take talking myself into or setting my mind on other things like sunshine and sprinkles.  It ESPECIALLY takes PRAYING A TON.

Whatever tactic needs to be taken in order to do it…I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY.

No matter the situation or circumstance…







Tonight at church we watched a video created for a program called My Hope America with Billy Graham. 

It was moving, touching and quite amazing.  I went to the My Hope America with Billy Graham  website when I got home to check out more info on this great evangelistic video.  It has a program to go through that can help you join in the efforts to spread Jesus!  I’m all about spreadin’ some Jesus!  I’ve already signed up for the training.  🙂

The video is shared below.  I just want to say, the most touching part to me is where Billy Graham says that JESUS became all of those things (like I talked about on my blog yesterday Sin is Sin) on the cross.  He took all of that for us!  It breaks my heart that He did that for us at the same time I’m rejoicing in the fact that He did.  Thank You Jesus!

Please watch the video.  It’s almost 29 minutes, but it’s a great narrative and drama that makes you think –in so many ways.  Once you’ve watched it, share it!


Thank You God for this video.  Thank You for allowing me to share it on my blog.  Thank You God for Your amazing gift in Jesus.  Thank You for loving me…as me.  Amen.

Recognize, visualize, OPEN YO EYES!


Blessings come from all over.  They fall from the sky and hit us right on the head sometimes.  We are so worried about the bump on our head that we don’t recognize the gift laying at our feet!  WHAT THE WHAT?!?  So dumb.

Recognize, visualize, OPEN YO EYES!  I have to remind myself of this daily.  I am not one to get way down or depressed much at all, but my mind gets on overload at times and it starts thinking stupid stuff.  I start feeling guilty for being healthy and happy.  I worry about being TOO blessed.  How dumb.  Seriously, how stupid am I when that happens!

Let’s say one of your parents wraps up this huge awesome gift that you have wanted for years.  They put thought and a ton of love in that box right along with this amazing gift.  You open it up and WAHHLAAAH–it’s what you have always wanted!  It makes your face smile all over your body!  You hoop and holler and hug their neck.  It’s wonderful, amazing and it’s all yours!

Would you take that gift and shove it back toward them and say, “I can’t accept this.”???  Would you ruin their day and crush their spirit?  Would you turn to them and ask them WHY they got that for you?   DUHHHHHHHHHH……..NOOOOO!

Just as our family and friends, BUT EVEN MORE SO, our Father God gives us blessings and gifts over and over.  His gifts are amazing and wonderful and awe-inspiring.  He gives us the sky, the science of breathing and laughing and wow, birthing!  He allows us to see and smell and taste.  He drops awesome people into our lives.  He allows us to provide for ourselves and our families through giving us jobs and ways of living.  He enables us to travel and see the sights that He created.  BLESSINGS!  GIFTS!  Why would we ever push those things back toward God and say “I’m not good enough to have that.”???

THAT RIGHT THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE THING…it’s the whisper of the devil.  The devil likes to tell you that you aren’t worthy.  The whispers he tells you say you don’t need to do this or that, because you aren’t good enough.   That nasty creep wants you to waller in guilt and suffering.  The devil loves when you feel guilt and shame.  UG!  And why do we do it!?  Why do I DO IT!?  DON’T DO IT!

Sometimes it takes a friend to remind you that the devil is real. (thanks Tammy!) All the time the Bible will guide you to where you need to be–away from that evil instigator.  When you feel the tug of the darkness…pray, pray and PRAY SOME MORE!

We have been SET FREE, because of the best gift of all!  The amazing blessing of a savior!  I have been set free by Jesus.  I have been made worthy thanks to the sacrifice He made.  I don’t want to ever shove that gift back toward Him!  I want to accept it, hold on to it, squeeze it and rejoice in it!  Amen!

Lord, please forgive me for kicking, screaming, griping, moaning, whining and crying about anything you have given me–PERIOD

I want to always recognize, visual and OPEN MY EYES to Your provisions, gifts and blessings!!!  Thank You for all!!!

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