So today, God told me this:
“YOU DO NOT NEED THE LOVE OR FORGIVENESS OF PEOPLE IF YOU HAVE IT FROM ME.”
I said, “But I want it.”
He said, “You don’t need it.”
I said, “But…”
He said, “You only need it from ME.”
He kept putting those capital letters in my head. I wrote it on a post-it and hung it on my computer. I have to remember this. I have to remember that even though someone never forgives me for some stupid thing I’ve done, it’s not my problem. Wow. For me to even type that is a major WOW moment. I don’t have to have their forgiveness, approval or love. I don’t have to be loved by others, they can even hate me… GOD LOVES ME!
I have been saved, forgiven..REDEEMED! That is such a HUGE DEAL!
That is something not of this world.
This world remembers all the bad things you’ve done.
This world brings up things that you keep trying to forget.
This world hates.
He has forgiven me, therefore He has wiped me clean.
It is done.
It is finished.
How can anger appear instantaneoulsy?
In a blink of an eye it can pop up out of nowhere.
Someone looks at you wrong, takes your words in the wrong way (MISCOMMUNICATION! UG!) or actually flips you “the bird.”
…AND THE FIRST SPARK OF ANGER POPS AND THE FLAME ROARS!
SOMETIMES, when I allow anger to take over my brain, it takes me forever to come to my senses. I get so stuck on the reasons why I’m upset. It’s crazy! Why do I allow that? I do this mainly with my husband and sometimes my children.
At work, it’s the total opposite. I know that the things students do in my classroom to make me upset really aren’t worth the anger. I, most of the time, do not take that personally. They need forgiveness, I believe, quick, so we can continue with our class– smoothly.
WHY CAN’T I DO THIS WITH EVERYONE!? Life is too short to keep anger. Like is too short to get hot-headed and crazy. Forgiveness should come quick and fast so LIFE CAN GO ON –SMOOTHLY! There is no time for revenge or bottled up ill feelings. What a waste of time.
I know I need to work on this. I am working on it now. Here are somethings that I’ve read lately that are going to help remind me…