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THE LIST goes on and on…

All the things I’ve done or haven’t done.

The dark stuff grows like a poison ivy vine in my brain.

The times I used my words like a sword.

The moments I passed on helping someone.

The ugly thoughts and horrible deeds.


And at times, it all seems overwhelming. It clouds my brain and discourages me.



The list of sins which feel like a huge pile of garbage stacked up all around me. It stinks, it’s gross and it makes me physically ill and mentally drained– when I let it.

BUT I KNOW WHAT GOD DID…He sent Jesus to take care of all that for me. He cleans up all the trash and rips up and tosses THE LIST like it’s a OLD grocery list! He made me brand NEW! He wiped my slate clean. He provided me a redo, totally did a make-over and gave me a redesign–a new model of me! I can wash all that yucky mess away –pull those vines out of my brain and be BRAND NEW! Because JESUS…HE DID THAT! He covered me and SAVED ME and like “Hulk smash stuff,” …


The Hulk is my favorite super hero.  I know I’ve blogged about him before.  I found this shirt today at Mardel.  This is my sweet child holding it up for me so I could share it on here tonight.  Yep, I now possess this awesome shirt!

Thank You Jesus for smashing THE LIST.


I have done horrible things in my life.  Yep.  It’s true.

If you can say you haven’t really done anything bad, then good for you.  That means your conscience is unclouded.  Again, good for you.  You don’t have things creep up into your head and try to blast you like one of those super soaker water guns.  You don’t ever have a perfect day and then once you are trying to drift off to sleep, a crazy past sin memory nudges you and prompts you to stare at the ceiling wide-eyed and regretting.   Instances, words and scenes don’t trigger those moments passed in time and cause you to cringe.

As a sinner, I’m not constantly (because I am a Christian), but at times, reminded of things I said or did that were not Godly.  God really doesn’t want us to do that.  He doesn’t remind us of the sin.  We do that ourselves.  HE wipes away all of those things when we truly decide to believe that His Son came to save us from all of that.

Then WHY do they still pop up into our brains!?  It’s like I’ve said before–we are dumb humans.  We can’t let go of the past, because all of the experiences we have had –good, bad or ewwwwww ugly– make us who we are today, but what makes us dumb is when we dwell on the ugly things.

As I said, God doesn’t want us to do that.  Think about being a parent, if we are a good one, we realize that our children are going to do bad things, but we should help them rejoice in the fact that they can get past any of the ugly.  We want to encourage them to do better and become fine, upstanding citizens.  If we can do that as the mere dumb humans we are–GOD DOES IT A MILLION TIMES MORE AND SO MUCH BETTER. He wants what is best for us.  He encourages us to do better.  He tells us to look to Him in the Bible and not to the things of this world.

My conscience might be somewhat clouded, but I praise GOD that He truly makes it clear.

I have prayed more times than 100 for Him to crumple those sin-memories up like paper and throw them away for me.

He says–If I only keep my eyes on him, those horrible things of the past will stay out of my brain more and more.

New sins will be harder and harder to commit, because I know God will guide me and direct me.

And even when sin does creep up in words or situations, we all have hope that any stain can be made white again ONLY BY THE BLOOD OF JESUS.   I love the symbolism in that, but mostly, I love the REALITY in that.  Amen!


I wish this world could do without the drama.

It is sad that it seems like in some people’s lives, IT is what makes their world go around instead of LOVE. They thrive on it. They continuously judge themselves against others and that is when jealousy comes in–THEN they start the drama by the evil remarks they spew that has spawned itself from judging and jealousy.

It’s truly sad. If we truly understand what the Bible says about such evilness, we know that judging yourself and others is a sin.

This sad sin is most prevalent, I believe, with middle school girls. That is exactly where my oldest is… In the sea of MS where drama develops itself among the jealous, mean and sad girls who think judging and talking about others will somehow make their lives complete. I try to guide and direct without lecturing or nagging, but most times I wish I could just lock her up until she’s 20 or so.

My only comfort and best defense AND absolute greatest tool to teach my child that drama is not worth the time it wastes in your brain is the Bible. I thank God for filling this book with His truth, His lessons and especially for His support in times like these.

Below are the verses I shared with my child and some of her friends today. I pray they understand it and see its example, hide it in their heart and take comfort from it.

Don’t speak evil against each other, dear brothers and sisters. If you criticize and judge each other, then you are criticizing and judging God’s law. But your job is to obey the law, not to judge whether it applies to you. God alone, who gave the law, is the Judge. He alone has the power to save or to destroy. So what right do you have to judge your neighbor? (James 4:11, 12 NLT)

If only everyone no matter what age could remember this verse –this concept–THIS TRUTH–and do what it says–I might get my “wish” I mentioned at the beginning of this blog.


Heavy Burden


When people who you love make bad choices, it weighs on your mind and feels like rocks in your heart. I know we can’t make decisions for others. I know we can’t get in their heads, really, and make them see our point of view. We can try, but inevitably, they will do what they want. You may try to persuade or coax by all sorts of means, but in the end, they make their own decision. It’s hard to see from their perspective especially when they are so deeply stained within by the devil himself.

We are all sinners, I know this, but if we are born again believers we strive to be like the ultimate example Jesus gave us in his time here on earth. And in the Bible it tells us to warn others about unGodly behavior.

See to it that no one repays evil for evil to anyone, but always pursue what is good for one another and for all. (1 Thessalonians 5:15 HCSB)

But if you warn a wicked person and he does not turn from his wickedness or his wicked way, he will die for his iniquity, but you will have saved your life. (Ezekiel 3:19 HCSB)

I could put verse after verse that tells us to warn others about being righteous and staying away from sin. This does not mean judge; although, its so hard not to when you know what is going on is so wrong. We are supposed to help each other. We are to lift one another up. Build! Remind those who you know LOVE God that they are to continue and to strive at all times to be righteous. Sometimes we fail to do this or we do it to no avail.

I know I seem to be just babbling today, but going back to my topic: HEAVY BURDEN

When those you love and care so much for are doing service for the devil, it’s such a burden on your heart. You know you probably can’t help by any words you offer. You feel like your hands are tied. The only thing you can do is pray. Prayer is POWER. AND SO I PRAY…

Dear Lord, I ask you to drive the devil from this situation. I ask You, Lord, to remove the scales from the eyes of my friend. I pray that You show me, a horrible sinner myself, what I can do to help show YOUR power. Please come in a mighty way, Lord and bless all those involved with peace, comfort and healing like only You can. I pray this continuously Lord. In the glorious name of Your Son Jesus Christ. Amen.



One of my posts today on FB which I found as a tweet on Twitter:

Let go of disappointments and setbacks in your life and hang on to the promises of God for your future!  @ArmorOGod  retweeted by God’s Grace and @RitaClawson

We all have those doubts and fears and that funky gut feeling when old sins creep up in our heads.  The devil whispers in your ear.  That horrible liar makes you think those things you did in the past are still fresh and can make you even get a paranoid feeling that everyone around you is judging you because of them.  Well, maybe they are, but does that have to effect what awesome things lie ahead?!  Not NO, but SHABAMALAMA NO!  As I said WE ALL have those sins.  We all have things we wish we didn’t do or say, places we shouldn’t have been and people we should have perhaps never allowed to stay in our lives.  If you have someone around you throwing up things from your past, you can absolutely,without a doubt know that they are doing this so no light will shine on their little (or big!) “skeletons in the closet.”  Do not allow them, (who let’s say it–are working for the devil..ew!)–to ruin your day, your week…YOUR FUTURE!  Hold on to the promises that GOD will sustain you.  He will show you your plan.  Once you hold on to HIS promises, none of those disappointments or setbacks can EVER hold you back again.  That is what you call FREEEEEEEEEDOM which allows you to move forward without any of those nasty ole sin shackles.



Proof of HIS Love!


On my way home tonight I saw a church billboard which asked the question:  “Are you showing God’s love?”  IMMEDIATELY the song I’ve included above came on.  PLEASE go listen to it.  It’s one of those songs I’ve heard before, but I admit, I have never really, truly listened to it’s lyrics.  It answered the question on the billboard.  I HOPE THAT MY LIFE IS PROOF OF GOD’S LOVE! 

I know my life  has not always reflected God.  There were years in my life that I knew who Jesus was.  I talked to God.  I prayed my little night time prayers and I blessed my food.  I even felt goosebumps when I felt like I was close to what God wanted me to do.  BUT I DIDN’T really reallly reeaaallly know Jesus.  I didn’t look at God as my true creator.  He was more like this big guy in the sky.  You know, that is what I’ve heard some athiest call Him.  EW!  I never ever never want to think like that ever again.

I can’t tell you the exact day I finally figured it out.  I mean, I know there are people who can tell you the exact day and hour that they actually got “saved,” but I can estimate the time where I finally figured out that Jesus is my personal savior!  I **FINALLY** decided that there were things in my life that were actually plans of the devil himself.  Did I drop all of those things cold turkey?  No.  Wish I could have!  Who doesn’t hope for peace, hope and a clean conscience!?   Even though I wasn’t able to drop them immediately, I did begin my journey of moving away from them.  Amen, Halleluia, Praise God!

I am such a sinner.  SUCH A SINNER!  We all have those gritty grimey things that clutter and cloud our mind.  I know I cringe or even get sick to my stomach thinking about some of the things I’ve done that were not Godly.   Positively though, I know, looking back, I’m not where I was 10 years ago.  I’m not where I was 5 years ago.  I’m not where I was a YEAR AGO!   AND I am not where I want to be now.  I want to be closer to God.  I want to be able to be in constant fellowship with Him.  I want to be able to LISTEN and hear what He wants me to do in all things.  I know I want a lot!  But I totally and absolutely believe that because I have Jesus as my savior, my faithful friend, my grace and my power, I can do all things THROUGH HIM!  I can continue to grow in Him and become THE PROOF OF HIS LOVE!

I want to reflect God’s love.  I don’t want to just share it, I want to shine it all around!  I want to show others that He is the reason for my joy.  Love one another.  Show the world your smile and your love and watch how the PROOF OF HIS LOVE grows all around you!

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